It seems like my body knows that I must get through the work week with as little pain as possible, but it seems to want to make up for the week on weekends. I had minimal pain all week, but this morning I woke up and I can hardly move my arms because my shoulders and neck are killing me. I also have a monster headache, but after almost 30 years of monster headaches I can deal with those. My feet feel like I'm walking on shards of glass!
I'm glad I didn't have this pain during the week, but I would like a weekend off every once in awhile. I guess my brain and body know that I need every bit of strength and energy to get through my days, but it is wreaking havoc with my weekends. I seem to spend my Saturdays trying to recuperate and recharge for the next work week. This wouldn't be so bad, except it takes time away from my family. I feel guilty for not wanting to do anything on Saturdays because I hurt so much, but luckily for me I live with a wonderful group of guys who pamper me and understand what I'm going through.
I love being a teacher, and all that it entails. I love seeing the faces of my students when the light bulb goes on. From the moment I step into the building until I get back into my car, I'm going nonstop! I don't think I could effectively do my job if I had the pain I have today. It's bad enough the fibro fog hits at the most inopportune times, but my kids usually can figure out what I'm trying to say or what I was trying to write when it hits.
This first week back wasn't too bad, and the fibro fog was pretty mellow until yesterday. I think by yesterday I was exhausted from the week and my brain was acting pretty loopy. The great thing about teaching 5th graders is that they are quick to pick up on a spelling mistake or a misspoken word. They are not obnoxious about correcting me, and I've learned to make it a game by telling them I was trying to see if they were paying attention. Other times I'll blame it on a lack of coffee. Either one usually works, and we have a good laugh about it!
So today I will rest up and conserve my energy. Luckily it's a 3 day weekend which will allow me to spend extra time with my guys. I've taken my meds and the dreaded pain pill (which I hate taking unless absolutely necessary), and I will nap! Today is a me day!